MY BEST FRIEND
Today, my best friend died. As I held him in my arms, he looked me in the eye to say goodbye. I am sad and feel so empty and lonely as I sit here and hold his warm soft body, with his face against mine, but I am relieved that he doesn’t feel the pain any more.
When he saw me today he sat up and tried to come to me and looked at me with his eyes to say please hold me, but he didn’t make a sound. I touched his face and he laid his head on my arm. He smiled and kissed me, but still didn’t show his pain. As the hours passed, with each labored breath he struggled to hold his head up, but when I moved he just fell back. Even with two oxygen tubes he couldn’t breathe. Each time he looked at me he said I love you.
Every night, I would put my arms around him and he would go to sleep so quickly, knowing that I was there to protect him. I knew that that his time was near when blood dripped from his nose as his little lungs filled with blood and I wanted him to feel safe as he went to heaven, so I held him and he relaxed and looked at me as the doctor gave him an injection to end his pain.
I sat down and held him in my arms, his warm soft body close to me and cried as I felt sorrow that I would never again be greeted by his welcome home bark. I would never feel him lying beside me on the bed at night with his feet in the air or feel his kisses every morning when he would awaken. I wouldn’t feel him crawl up on the pillow and lay his head beside mine and feel his sweet breath. I would never feel him push me aside as he had to look at everything that I was doing.
But I also felt comfort as I knew that he would no longer be in pain. His last months of life must have been painful for him, but he never showed the pain, all he showed was love. He broke his leg but never cried out. I picked him up and he just relaxed as he felt comforted. He never asked for anything but love and gave of himself, unconditional love for the 8 and ˝ years that he was with us. He knew when you were sad or in pain and would just come up and give you kisses.
God sent him to us as an angel and now he has gone home to God where there will be no more pain and he can run and play and be happy knowing that he will always be here with us, alive in our hearts.
Aladdin XXVII (Boo Beavers) *Born: June 6, 1995 **Died January 25, 2004